no guts no glory

hehe...so it's like this...kita nk wat ap2 kita kena brani..brani buat..brani trima risiko...even the most simple things kadang2 bole jadi susah..for example saying those 3 word...yeah suma org taw kan..3 so meaning full words...for other people i dont now..but for me it's really hard...before this it took me almost 4 years to get the courge..kebaranian nk ckp the 3 word kat some one before i was betol2 ready..tapi malangnya tak sempat nk cakap pon kat org tu..it may be just ketentuan dan takdir...may be she was not really the one for me..sbb tu hati saya tak sikit pon terdetik kan ckp the 3 word kat dia..it wat just faith for us to be just friends...no more then that..tp tu suma adalah sejarah lama...but to say those 3 words is really hard.. finaly after almost 6 years not saying it to anyone...finally i got the guts nk ucap kat this special someone...mybe i really had fall in love with this one..thats y ad kebranian nk mngucap kan kata tu...and i went just shooting in the blind..i dont care what the result is if sy ckp 3 word to kat org tu...but that was the risk i was willing to take..then last night..it really felt through my heart that i really really do.... I LOVE YOU !

"no worries no regrets nothing can change it..your worth putting my life on the line"

what a night...

hopeing for the best is what we all want right...but tonite is not one of the best of my nite...i eassily get streess...sometimes i dont know it..but biasanya bnyk tanda2..suma yg dibuat tak kena..abis suma barang2 jatuh..and mlm nie..it happend again...stress abit..abis playing the guitar in a not so happy mood..it's fun but not good...putus tali..luka jari and berbekas tangan sbb tali bidas bila putus..haiss..just my luck..tp it's okyh..harap2 suka akan okyh blik..nak raya dah kan..

give me even 1000 reason to leave...ill try find atlest one reason to stay ill never leave you ill never give up!

life right...haiss

well thats life kan...one day..that person can be ur friend..the other day..that person can stab you in the back..harsh word i got from my friend..haiss..c'mon la..u asked advice from me..i told you the truth and i get crap out of you...yess memang ak pon tak berjaya lagi dalam hidup ak..but im trying...wlpon ad certain2 things yang di cakap macam betol but it all can change...yer ak taw ak blom layak nak bercakap isu cinta,bcoz ak sendiri pon tak betol lg..yess mmg ak tak de org yang sayang ak..and  ak tak layak dapat kasih sayang dari sapa2..but atleast ak cuba utk bg kasih sayang kat org2 yang ak sayang....mmg ak bodoh sbb buat ap yang ak buat....tp stiap bnda ak buat suma ad sebab....

to love and to be loved mmg diigin kan oleh suma orang...tak suma yg bertuah dapat...

friendship is for ever thats what friends are for.."once my friend always my friend"

always a first for eveything..

hehe..dalam hidup nie macam ad..and macam2 kita bole cuba...and betol la..mmg kn ad first utk apa2 pon..tak kenal maka tak cinta kan..hehe..tp biasa nya kita takut nk buat something yg kita tak yakin...tp bila ad someone yang mendorong...baru kita ad semagat..so this is one of the situattions...semanjak dari ak kecik lagi..kakak aku slalu anta kad raya kat kawan2 dia..saudara2..ak pon teringin gak dlu..tapi dr dulu ak tak penah anta kad raya kat sapa2 pon dlm hidup ak....sbb nya ak tak yakin...maklum la..tulisan ak buruk...so malu bila nk anta...selalu comot..and bila tak cantik tak jadi la anta..klu ak bukak blik dlm almari ak tu..abnyak kad2 raya yang ak dh tulis tp tak penah anta..smpi la ke suatu hari tu...which is arie ahad arietu..sy tau that special someone really likes klu dpt kad raya..exicted sy tgk dia becerita kat twitter dia..so sy pon ambik keputusan utk anta my first ever kad raya...yup..seumur hidup saya 1 kad raya tu je yang betol2 sy anta and alhamdulilah smpi kat tmpt yg patot didtuju...suka bila dpt taw yg kad tu dah smpi..hehe..so it makes me happy...mybe thats the first...and hope raya2 akan datang sy bole anta lg kad raya kat kamu...

*u have inspired me so much..to do things that i never thought i can do..benda2 yg saya tak mampu buat..tapi bila sy pikir kamu..sy bole buat... u truely are my inspiration... =)

challenge accepted

ini la org cakap dugaan...mmg betol2 menduga..i really felt a stab on my chest when i heard that from you...but it a risk that im willing to take...sy dh buat janji pada diri sndri yang saya tak akn kalah and akn cuba so that i wont lose anything i love again... so ill fight until my last breath.... ap yg jadi td sy anggap satu cabaran...and sy akan cuba sedaya upaya...ill never give up..wlpon sy terpaksa start dari mula blik nk bg kamu sayang saya blik.... ill never lose hope bcoz i love you so much....

i love you before..i love you now..and i ll love you until my last breath.... 

a tear drop on a keyboard....

soo..have you ever felt that you love someone with all your heart..it's the best feeling right...but sometimes not everyone is lucky....it's okyh...if you really love someone it's the feeling of seeing that person happy is what love is all about...so i really love that someone..and for the past 5 days ive been trying to play a song..it quite hard for my level...but for the past 5 day..i couldnt play it at all..sikit pon tak bole...then just now because of sumthing that happend..i tried and play it once more..hands are shaking...and this time i really played it with my heart...selamat jadi..and a single tear drop feel on my keyboard while i was playing...ironic right... i played that simple song for that special someone that i really love.. "as long as you love me"

dont wanna lose any more

so..yesterday...it was a bit hard on me..i finally a part of my life that it very important for me... who i am..what i like..what i love...i had to past it..and i mybe can never do it again..so today i have accept the fact..and it okyh..but i promise my self that starting from today..ill fight and defend for what i love and like with my life...i dont want to lose anything anymore.... especially the things and people i love.... this is my promise and my hope...i make sure that my  life will be great.... i dont want to lose...especially lose you...

never give up