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Friday, August 31, 2012

SEPTEMBER

the month of September or bulan 9 is just around the corner..esk..! yeay!...ive been waiting for this..it a very special month for me...coz i really like september...23 is my lucky number..and this year is my 23rd b'day on the 23 of september...wuuhuuuu what a great number.hope this year it gives me lots of happyness.. so this is why u like septmber..


  1. it my birthday month and its my 23
  2. ive been lucky so far on september..something good alwys happens on this month ( really hope it stays that way)
  3. lastly is it been a while almost 2 month since i meet with that someone..and september has aways been a marker that is near..really exicted..to finally get to meet that someone again...

thats for now...

**my september wish is that only one thing...the only thing that i want more then anything in the whole world...is being with that special someone 

Monday, August 27, 2012

i am who i am...

 im just a simple guy...as simple as i can be...nothing interesting about me or my life..it only became interesting when i meet that some one...so this is who i am... 
im not as good looking or cute as 
and also not as rich and famous as

to fight the look and charm of  
mmg tak la kan....

then to make people melt and to be a great pastry chef like 
only in my dreams la....


i really got nothing special to offer just simple guy..with a simple life..that cant promise money or the world..but what i can promise is ill do my best to make that person happy..and to love with all my heart...coz when i say those words..i really mean it.. =)

Thursday, August 23, 2012

much better when have my inspiration...

hehe..dlm hidup nie..kita nak wat ap2 pon kena ad ilham...dr mcm2 tempat ilham tu datang..ad yg dok kat jamban...ad yg isap rokok..ad yg termenung..ad yg kena gi tempat yg ad sceane yg menarik..mcm2 la...tp my inspiration..bukan la tempat mahu pon bnda..my inspiration adalah seseorg.....hehe..sapa?ad yg dah taw sapa..and ad yg tak tahu..but etheir way...she is my inspiration yg sgt2 membantu....i can skecth pictures because of her...i now can play music and abit confident to play to people ( wlpon blom depan2 and just utk dia sorg je) but still it's progress...i love to eat and cook...and dia ttp mnjadi ilham utk sy masak..doing things and cooking things yg dia pernah sebut..pernah cakap..trying new thing just to impress her..walaupoon tak reti nk masak sgt pon..but ill try my best..mcm2 da dibuat...apam polkadot...pavlova...kuih2..after this mcm2 lagi nk dibuat...hehe...cant wait...thank you becuse you inspire me so much..*you know who u are...

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

keputusan yang susah...

ssh bila kadang2 kita kena buat kputusan yg kita tak suka...im very afraid of the doctors...lantak la org nk ckp ap..do i care...haiss...so utk buat something like that mmg susah..ap ntah lg nk masuk bilik bedah...oit..tak nk la..tak cukup kuat sy... blom mampu ke tahap tu lagi..macam2 bermain di kpla otak bila pikir kan benda tu....mcm mn klu slh potong.bedarah teruk..mcm mn klu sy panik..ap yg akn jadi..mcm mn klu sakit..ap bole buat...mcm mn klu mati?! haa..blom readay lg nk mati..mmg la kita bila2 bole dicabut nyawa..it crossed my mind..bnyk bnda lg yg sy tak buat...haiss.... for now mmg keputusan nk go on tu tak de... tp kalau la ditakdir kan utk nyawa dicabut...ak hnya berdoa...and only two things that will always be my   pray...which is pnjang kan umur dan murah kn rezki keluarga ku and berikanlah ak kesempatan utk atleast merasa kasih sayang dr seseorg wat kali terakhir......


*agak over and melampau utk pikir mcm tu..but im really scared...takot yg teramat sangat...tuhan je yang tahu

no guts no glory

hehe...so it's like this...kita nk wat ap2 kita kena brani..brani buat..brani trima risiko...even the most simple things kadang2 bole jadi susah..for example saying those 3 word...yeah suma org taw kan..3 so meaning full words...for other people i dont now..but for me it's really hard...before this it took me almost 4 years to get the courge..kebaranian nk ckp the 3 word kat some one before i was betol2 ready..tapi malangnya tak sempat nk cakap pon kat org tu..it may be just ketentuan dan takdir...may be she was not really the one for me..sbb tu hati saya tak sikit pon terdetik kan ckp the 3 word kat dia..it wat just faith for us to be just friends...no more then that..tp tu suma adalah sejarah lama...but to say those 3 words is really hard.. finaly after almost 6 years not saying it to anyone...finally i got the guts nk ucap kat this special someone...mybe i really had fall in love with this one..thats y ad kebranian nk mngucap kan kata tu...and i went just shooting in the blind..i dont care what the result is if sy ckp 3 word to kat org tu...but that was the risk i was willing to take..then last night..it really felt through my heart that i really really do.... I LOVE YOU !


"no worries no regrets nothing can change it..your worth putting my life on the line"

Saturday, August 18, 2012

what a night...

hopeing for the best is what we all want right...but tonite is not one of the best of my nite...i eassily get streess...sometimes i dont know it..but biasanya bnyk tanda2..suma yg dibuat tak kena..abis suma barang2 jatuh..and mlm nie..it happend again...stress abit..abis playing the guitar in a not so happy mood..it's fun but not good...putus tali..luka jari and berbekas tangan sbb tali bidas bila putus..haiss..just my luck..tp it's okyh..harap2 suka akan okyh blik..nak raya dah kan..

give me even 1000 reason to leave...ill try find atlest one reason to stay ill never leave you ill never give up!

life right...haiss


well thats life kan...one day..that person can be ur friend..the other day..that person can stab you in the back..harsh word i got from my friend..haiss..c'mon la..u asked advice from me..i told you the truth and i get crap out of you...yess memang ak pon tak berjaya lagi dalam hidup ak..but im trying...wlpon ad certain2 things yang di cakap macam betol but it all can change...yer ak taw ak blom layak nak bercakap isu cinta,bcoz ak sendiri pon tak betol lg..yess mmg ak tak de org yang sayang ak..and  ak tak layak dapat kasih sayang dari sapa2..but atleast ak cuba utk bg kasih sayang kat org2 yang ak sayang....mmg ak bodoh sbb buat ap yang ak buat....tp stiap bnda ak buat suma ad sebab....

to love and to be loved mmg diigin kan oleh suma orang...tak suma yg bertuah dapat...
friendship is for ever thats what friends are for.."once my friend always my friend"

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

always a first for eveything..

hehe..dalam hidup nie macam ad..and macam2 kita bole cuba...and betol la..mmg kn ad first utk apa2 pon..tak kenal maka tak cinta kan..hehe..tp biasa nya kita takut nk buat something yg kita tak yakin...tp bila ad someone yang mendorong...baru kita ad semagat..so this is one of the situattions...semanjak dari ak kecik lagi..kakak aku slalu anta kad raya kat kawan2 dia..saudara2..ak pon teringin gak dlu..tapi dr dulu ak tak penah anta kad raya kat sapa2 pon dlm hidup ak....sbb nya ak tak yakin...maklum la..tulisan ak buruk...so malu bila nk anta...selalu comot..and bila tak cantik tak jadi la anta..klu ak bukak blik dlm almari ak tu..abnyak kad2 raya yang ak dh tulis tp tak penah anta..smpi la ke suatu hari tu...which is arie ahad arietu..sy tau that special someone really likes klu dpt kad raya..exicted sy tgk dia becerita kat twitter dia..so sy pon ambik keputusan utk anta my first ever kad raya...yup..seumur hidup saya 1 kad raya tu je yang betol2 sy anta and alhamdulilah smpi kat tmpt yg patot didtuju...suka bila dpt taw yg kad tu dah smpi..hehe..so it makes me happy...mybe thats the first...and hope raya2 akan datang sy bole anta lg kad raya kat kamu...

*u have inspired me so much..to do things that i never thought i can do..benda2 yg saya tak mampu buat..tapi bila sy pikir kamu..sy bole buat... u truely are my inspiration... =)

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

challenge accepted

ini la org cakap dugaan...mmg betol2 menduga..i really felt a stab on my chest when i heard that from you...but it a risk that im willing to take...sy dh buat janji pada diri sndri yang saya tak akn kalah and akn cuba so that i wont lose anything i love again... so ill fight until my last breath.... ap yg jadi td sy anggap satu cabaran...and sy akan cuba sedaya upaya...ill never give up..wlpon sy terpaksa start dari mula blik nk bg kamu sayang saya blik.... ill never lose hope bcoz i love you so much....

i love you before..i love you now..and i ll love you until my last breath.... 

a tear drop on a keyboard....

soo..have you ever felt that you love someone with all your heart..it's the best feeling right...but sometimes not everyone is lucky....it's okyh...if you really love someone it's the feeling of seeing that person happy is what love is all about...so i really love that someone..and for the past 5 days ive been trying to play a song..it quite hard for my level...but for the past 5 day..i couldnt play it at all..sikit pon tak bole...then just now because of sumthing that happend..i tried and play it once more..hands are shaking...and this time i really played it with my heart...selamat jadi..and a single tear drop feel on my keyboard while i was playing...ironic right... i played that simple song for that special someone that i really love.. "as long as you love me"



Saturday, August 4, 2012

dont wanna lose any more

so..yesterday...it was a bit hard on me..i finally a part of my life that it very important for me... who i am..what i like..what i love...i had to past it..and i mybe can never do it again..so today i have accept the fact..and it okyh..but i promise my self that starting from today..ill fight and defend for what i love and like with my life...i dont want to lose anything anymore.... especially the things and people i love.... this is my promise and my hope...i make sure that my  life will be great.... i dont want to lose...especially lose you...

never give up